I wish i could say the pain is easing.... but its not! quite the opposite really! Most nights i lay in bed crying myself to sleep! I still just cant bring myself to accept he is gone! I think that continuing his campaign probably doesn't help as i was doing this while he was here so its no different! I also cannot help but think that its the elderly who pass...not a 34 year old?! I'm dreading his funeral, but perhaps it will be closure for me? Or it will hit me straight in the face and actually realise he is gone, i wont see him again, talk to him again, cuddle him again, nor will he be the person there to cheer me up and look out for me like he always did! Only last night i had to text my cousin - i miss texting him everyday! knowing he is ok!
There was an article in the paper again on Friday - but this time the complete opposite to the first! this time it was paying a tribute to my cousin and still trying to get people to sign up!
I really do hope that by making the video, this blog and with all the support of friends and family people will sign up to the organ donor register! I pray no other families will ever have to deal with the amount of pain we all are going through! and the sense of denial!
If your reading this, and not signed up please ask yourself WHY? Is it selfishness, fear that you need to accept that 1 day you too will pass? Or that your organ will go to an alcoholic/drug user? Whatever your reason please take a moment and think what would you do if you needed a new organ? Would you take one if you were lucky enough to have one there for you? If the answer is YES... then think..... would you give 1 back once your time is up? If you could save a young persons life surely that in itself would make you want to sign up?!? Ive signed up - if something unfortunate happened to me then i would be happy knowing that i am saving someone else who is fighting for life needing an organ, just because my time is up doesn't mean someone Else's should be too! Also the fear of organs going to alcoholics or drug users - please consider there background, there may be a reason they have turned to alcohol/drugs- however then think there will more than likely always be a person of more importance than them - the emergency donor list!!!
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