A lot of preparation has gone into making sure my cousin has the send off he wanted!
I found it hard to sleep, my emotions all over the place, i really am NEVER going to see my cousin again not speak to him or get 1 last text message from him! Still... i must stay strong!
When I arrived at my uncles house, the atmosphere was strange - I didn't know what to say to anyone and my eyes just filled up with tears! Seeing everyone together was great, but it was all for the wrong reason!
Waiting outside - every second felt like a minute, then....there he was! Excitement came over me - MY COUSIN WAS HERE!!!!! But wait - his not really here is he? Tears flooded down my face! knowing my cousin was inside that car - i just wanted to get him out and see him, just 1 last time!
Turning up to the crematorium was a scene ill never forget! So many people had turned up to say goodbye to an amazing person! It is clear just what an impact my cousin had on everyone he met! People had to stand up and outside as there was not enough room for them all!
The service was as lovely as could be. Instead of a religious service, my cousin wanted a slide show of photos from his life played alongside music - just seeing those photos made me realise again that i wont ever see his face again! Knowing just that fact kills me and the pain i feel in my heart is so intense! However watching the slid show made us all see just what an amazing life my cousin had although cut very short!
The wake was lovely too, speeches were performed by my cousin girlfriend, her father and my cousins best friend. Such an emotional time but they all done so well! My cousin would be proud! It was great listening to all the memories people have of my cousin, however i still want to be making memories! I can only hope this pain fades - if I'm feeling this much pain i cannot but wonder what his girlfriend, children, father and brothers are feeling too!
You were taken too soon but your never be forgotten! You made such an impact on so many peoples lives! Sleep tight cousin - i will always love you! xxxx
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